8/03/08 This International Women's Day is Meltingpod 3rd Anniversary : ride on the storm !
For this International Women’s Day, “The First French Woman in Podcasting” was very down underground these last days and I couldn’t imagine if physically or mentally I will be able to write one word today for Meltingpod’s third Anniversary ! So no sound no picture this time I’m still too weak, sorry ! I’m just using a short break in the storm to explain my silence this last month…a weird experience…
During the last two weeks a herniated disc between two of my cervical vertebras suddently compressed a nerve which runs through my left shoulder and arm until the fingers (bad fall, working too much time with a wrong position on my computer, not enough sport ? surely many reasons together to “break my neck and my back ” !!) : I never lived before such a terrible pain in my body during so many days and nights without break. I couldn’t stand up or sit down more than one minute without horribly suffering from intense muscular contractions in my shoulder and arm in despite the strongest current sedative products (Sister Morphine’s brother, opium, cortisone…); the most surrealistic act though was a direct injection through my throat to my cervical vertebra reaching the place where the nerve was irritated : the doctor could check the arrival of the spike in my neck on a picture screen live on the wall behind me : awake without anaesthesia, I regretted not to be allowed to turn my head and watch myself the interesting movie inside my cervical area, the order being “don’t move from one mm” and strangely I didn’t risk to disobey this time !!
Another fine act was instead to call Buzz Bidstrup at the end of the Bon Scott Celebration Concert as planned, I called in fact an ambulance (for the first time in my life) to bring me at the hospital and I had the privilege to see live the urgency service a Sunday afternoon without doctor or so few that it quickly turned to a horror pictures show; after waiting two hours for just a sedative injection I escaped back home quickly (better to die in my bed). The best memory : the most fantastic colorful and incredibly creative both dreams of my life maybe made under the opium’s effect ?…:)
If most of the time I was immersed in a forced sleep, when I was awake laying down on the back in my bed without moving, I could spend hours and hours to evaluate and re-evaluate my work during the last three years with Meltingpod : I became pretty famous getting a good ranking on google with my podcasts and offering a good international exposure to the guests of my shows, can have interviews with really interesting people, got cool listeners from all around the world until China now but after such a hard work still no money at all in my pocket and no idea to change this situation quickly ! I slowly lost my financial independancy then I was during these last endless days testing the loss of my physical autonomy and this nasty story still seems far away to be finished unfortunately. Funnily I remembered Angry Anderson who told me in our interview last year :
“THERE IS NO CHANGE WITHOUT PAIN !!”.
I got the pain first and I think my body turned the alarm to red as a warning : I reached the extreme limit now, I have no other choice than to change the way I invest 100% (120%!!) of my energy. No idea about the form of the next podcasts (surely shorter and faster produced) and how many shows a year, but this fourth year will be…has to be completly different. I need to find a paid job again (maybe back as cityplanner or anything else). I have to modify my priorities.
BTW : Welcome in The Meltingworlds’happy donators’ circle to Darrel (Blue Tongue Management) from Sydney and thanks to be here !! (click on the kangaroo on the right column here to join us and support Meltingpod !!).
mars 9th, 2008 at 18:38:46
Hey Annie,
Time for a change. Change can be scary but hopefully you’ll end up seeing the wood from he trees.
Good luck, get well soon and happy job hunt!
Sandra
xoxox
mars 9th, 2008 at 23:33:34
Best wishes to you from Australia. Thank you for all your support of Australian music
xxx
mars 10th, 2008 at 08:32:42
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mars 10th, 2008 at 12:12:36
thanks for the update on all thats happening in your life at the moment Annie. its been fantastic listening to your podcasts since i discovered a wonderful gem in Marseilles (you!) it is such a shame that u get no return on the exposure that you have given australian rock music over the years. but i am sure i speak for all us aussie fans of rock when i say that we appreciate what u do!! however you must do what u need to do, and know that it is with my total support..keep rockin sista, hope that light at the end of tunnel gets brighter soonx
mars 10th, 2008 at 19:40:10
Dear Annie!
Just get well again!!!!!!!
Love,
Tom
mars 10th, 2008 at 22:03:27
Sorry to read about your ill health, get well soon and hope that you do find a good well paying job, and it is a crying shame, that for all your promotion that no-one at the time of writing will sponsor big time but there is always tomorrow or the next day. Take care.
Patricia
mars 11th, 2008 at 10:55:52
Hope you get well soon!
Greetings from Sweden
mars 11th, 2008 at 12:56:25
Hard times for you dear! But don’t forget what you did and what you’ll keep doing …. You still are the first woman in podcasting and whatever the way it takes you’ll still be… you are a resourceful person and I trust you….
Take care of yourself!
We love you…
Happy birthday to Meltingpod!!!
mars 12th, 2008 at 09:39:08
Annie,
Oh jeez, it sounds like you’ve really been through the mill ! Health first, Annie . . . you have done some amazing shows over the last few years and you can proud of what you’ve done. And as Bea says, you are a resourceful and courageuse woman and you’ll bounce back, I’m sure !!
Many kisses from Paris, take care,
Dave
mars 12th, 2008 at 11:24:55
Hi there Annie
I’m sorry to learn of your ill health and I hope you make a quick recovery
mars 13th, 2008 at 11:29:18
Zut alors ! c’est pour ça que je ne te vois plus depuis un moment … vivre de sa passion n’est pas une chose facile … mais j’espere déjà que tu vas vite te rétablir et qu’on pourra discuter de tout ça de visu.
Bises
mars 14th, 2008 at 18:59:13
Annie
You know you have my absolute support. You’re doing a wonderful work and it’s impossible to imagine the music world without meltingpod. Let me sing for you: “Hey hey my my, meltingpod will never die…”
As for your health, please take care of yourself. WE need you, so, for once, think of yourself and get well soon.
Bises, my dear
Eric
mars 16th, 2008 at 22:01:54
Salut Annie,
Je crois qu’il est nécessaire que tu te reconstruises une santé et que tu canalises ton enthousiasme habituel dans ce but actuellement. Je te fais confiance pour revenir.
Et surtout, une fois sur pied pense à toi, à ta santé, à tes proches et reprends ta marche en avant. Le rock&roll peut attentre, le rock&roll peut t’attendre, il te le doit suffisamment.
Nous t’attendrons également. Mais sois patiente jusqu’à ce que tu sois totalement sortie de ce mauvais pas.
Kiss Kiss
Hervé
mars 18th, 2008 at 12:30:28
Dear Annie,
I´m so sorry to read about your ill health and I hope you´ll get better soon.
Best wishes and good look for all the things you plan to do.
Much Love and Light from Germany.
Eli